Saturday, April 21, 2012

性格先決

This wheel busy arrive luck look, 所以想寫都冇力,印象中未試過掉低間鋪成三四個禮拜咁耐吽草。

忙與超忙之間,都有少少時間可以攝,例如聽同事意見不如睇下電視八下,或者應承朋友出黎食晚飯。

琴晚就去左 Beijing 樓食Beijing 烤鴨。食緊走樣丸子既時候,我突然覺得,無論工作定娛樂,都可以係一道甜品。前排(定仲係呢期?)既《大作戰》一上桌就好似唔錯喎,諗住下晚一定要再點多次,或者因為我已經忙到亂曬龍,第晚果集我已經覺得好漏(膩),再食唔落勒。同一道甜品第二晚已經覺得漏,假如唔係經濟法則使然,就肯定係男人談新忘舊所致,我覺得唔應該怪道甜品唔好食。起碼,我都曾經返尋味過半晚咁多。

咁努力去尋開心,皆因人際關係上遇到阻滯。呢個禮拜見左兩個客,一次開口及著脷,另一次準備不足丟人現眼。同事話唔似以前咁斯文淡定,精神太緊張亢奮。係,呢個係我其中一個致命弱點,而另一個就係做事唔分輕重,就好似家陣咁,忙到今日返公司清清下 in tray 都格硬要抽個幾兩個鐘頭打文。

我真係一個幾有毅力既人。毅力者,perseverance也。而我亦係一個不斷堅持,不斷以毅力勇氣交替去完成各種人生責任義務既人。呢種 repeated perseverance,絕對係我個人最大既優點,令我不斷前進,不斷 procrastinate,再不斷前進,再不斷procrastinate。周而復始,成就我家下堅毅既性格同埋人生。

所以我好欣賞我自己,亦因為呢種自我欣賞,令我自尊好扎實,唔會得閑就自慚形穢,呻冇人欣賞,顧影自憐,投訴他人點樣對自己。冇錯,係自尊心,唔係自信心。我冇自尊,所以覺得生活真係唔算太差。

其實冇自尊真係 = 好扎實既自尊咧,呢種真係邏輯黎架喎。唔好好似某d人咁,一係諗住邏輯係d 咩高深野,學極都唔明;一係就覺得聽到人下下提邏輯就好似上身咁,覺得人地冇家教;一係就下下話人冇邏輯,我高你低;又一係話你既邏輯套用唔落我地大眾全體多數market norm傳統既邏輯,迴避指責 marginalize 異見。Well,邏輯根本就係唯我獨尊架啦。講幾多邏輯都好,人既感覺永遠,或者幾乎永遠都會左右你既邏輯,左右你對邏輯既定義。信我丫,人凡親覺得討厭既都會排除出自己既邏輯體系;而唔係人先發現歸納唔到自己邏輯體系,然後再討厭佢。會有呢種覺悟既人(係覺悟,唔係理解),可能要先摒除七情六慾先可以歸納到唔同人,唔同卡屎,唔同層次既邏輯體系。如果人地話你一句半句仆街自己就蠢蠢欲動,自己就算點響人面前講自己邏輯功力有幾深厚都不過係仆街邏輯。Audit 下自己個mental account 或者可以睇到自己既邏輯體系會幾仆街,或者有幾普及地仆街。

拿,我唔係打緊牌吹水呀。唔好亂對號呀。我只係極度亢奮咋,響度諗,我係咪應該今晚抖下,聽日返黎公司再做過呢?定係我應該堅持做到今晚十二點,咁禮拜咪唔洗心掛掛可以全日休息囉。定係玩埋今晚先再算好呢?

25 comments:

the inner space said...

welcome back 施庵,唔喺病到寫唔到blog可喜可賀。不知你是否還在 office 拼命中,還是留返明天再搏,其實無乜所謂,最後都是自己做返,不如留返週一再拼搏過喇。今明返歸撩吓個寶貝女談心,又同個心肝寶貝仔仔玩吓,咪仲好!

C.M. said...

你呢亭真係損友。係,我仲係響office拼命思考中。

份report原定琴日到左deadline勒,我係側側膊見老細成日都出左去開會唔得閑review我先至咁沙pok 應承人出去食飯架。

頭先返黎見到老細又響度忙緊,我毫無悔意咁提醒佢星期一一定要review邊parts,好似我做左老細咁。

黎緊呢九點前我一定要figure out 究竟忙埋今日,定留返聽日。呢個dilemma一定要儘早解決。你既寶貴意見,我會詳加考慮。

laulong said...

你真係忙到 luck look, 要爭取放鬆一下呀!

Anonymous said...

我都忙到試過半夜兩點幾彈起身做公司嘢呀呢排...共勉之

C.M. said...

校長!

我直頭散曬,剛剛先返到屋企,聽日仲要返去推敲過份report要點present。臨老先黎搏殺,真係死得。呢兩個個禮拜已經有好幾日早出晚歸+星期六/日補鐘啦。頂。。。。。(成你貴言呀)

米:

一定要搵日再食飯,同事都覺得我就快斷線勒。

christina said...

hey faithful christian!!

what do you think about that immoral christian Athena Chu? Having sex before marriage and pregnant!!! Such unforgivable sin!

How should these guilty people be punished by genuine christians?
can you share your personal experience?

the inner space said...

施庵兄:兄台吓吓都遷就老闆死線意願,今次你捱週六週日寫 report,唔陪仔仔女女過 family day 啫,咪繼續繼續有下次下下次 so on,你要表現也不是這樣靠勤力,否則就快斷線,唔好畀我講中要入廠修理,咁又何必呢?

Touch Wood Touch Wood!
最誠實最誠懇的最佳損友 sPace

Anonymous said...

漏了。。。。。

p.s. 看來其實貴老闆自己都忙得很,HE/SHE 都忘記了你寫的 report!


最誠實最誠懇的最佳損友 sPace

C.M. said...

(頂,我剛剛起身未刷牙洗臉食飯,仲想返工前打陣機添.... 係喎,有人話禮拜日唔應該做野喎,咁我係咪今日唔好返工?...)

C.M. said...

christina:

How do you see morality? Is morality a path of yours to the destination you wish to get? Or you just wanted see what immorality is?

An average man lies 5 times a day. An average non-vegetarian eats half a pound of meat a day.

Can you share your personal experience?

損友Space:

呢個唔係老闆意願黎架,係個客架。琴晚做到淩晨一點幾先搞掂,今日收工前出埋... Well,呢d日子都係一次半次啫(希望),應該唔會好傷身既。

雖則我咁既年紀就impact 大d,希望到時入廠有床位比我啦。

又,哈哈,你講中曬,其實佢仲忙到甩肺!我覺得佢寧願我唔追佢review好過。

又又,損友中你的確最誠實最誠懇。之但好抱歉,最佳既寶座,已經由我倆之貴友人穩坐良久,此姝誰屬,相信嗜悲君毋須在下示意吧。 ^^

the inner space said...

John 7:53-8:11

Then each of them went home, while Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. Early in the morning he came again to the temple. All the people came to him and he sat down and began to teach them. The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery; and making her stand before all of them, they said to him, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of committing adultery. Now in the law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" They said this to test him, so that they might have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her." And once again he bent down and wrote on the ground. When they heard it, they went away, one by one, beginning with the elders; and Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. Jesus straightened up and said to her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?" She said, "No one, sir." And Jesus said, "Neither do I condemn you. Go your way, and from now on do not sin again."

the inner space said...

哈哈哈 老實講我都是不敢在她面前人第一嘅!

the inner space said...

哈哈哈 老實講我都是不敢在她面前“認”第一嘅!


sorry 人 和 認 在漢語拼音輸入 都是 REN!

christina said...

if committing an act against god's rule (sex before marraige!!) isn't immoral, then what is?????

C.M. said...

christina,

If the degree of morality can be seen through a spectrum, then morality will be a point at one end, immorality will be the rest of the spectrum.

I am a below average man. I am in the larger portion of the spectrum. I survive the sunrise and I live the sunset. And then I survive the light again.

You can too.

最佳損友 said...

是人是鬼妄稱神
畫龍畫蛇不成人
瘋言瘋語非正道
撫肺撫心宜省身

試問,誰說,才算數!!!

(係,的確有啲身痕、手癢。)

christina said...

such a graceful act to even mention about sunrise!

but how can christianity disapproving premarital sex on one hand, and condemning such "immoral" practice in the almighty bible, while some christians can deliberately break such rule?

seikomatic said...

亢奮超過一個鐘都應該注意,睇下醫生,否則可能敗死。

Anonymous said...

下下話人冇邏輯在FB見唔少。
"有呢種覺悟既人(係覺悟,唔係理解),可能要先摒除七情六慾先可以歸納到唔同人,唔同卡屎,唔同層次既邏輯體系。"
係呀,D體系有好多,多到我到唔會去數,又何來“你的說話不合邏輯!" 慢著,我在發掘你的邏輯呢^^ .
又,有自尊心self-respect就唔會這麼容易被人家傷到自尊,:P

anonymous-b

C.M. said...

Space:

既然認為要通過“審判”,才可以彰顯“義”,那就隨他好了。

(乜原來你都係用拼音打字既咩?)

損友:

我真係叻,可以令你手癢。

christina,

Perhaps because I have a hope for the sunrise that I still remember.

And because you think the two are contradictory and leave no place for something in between.

C.M. said...

晶晶:

已經超過一個星期,最近平復番落黎... 真係幾乎死。

Anon-B:

>>有自尊心self-respect就唔會這麼容易被人家傷到自尊

哈哈,咁當然啦。我既冇自尊,就係唔去為自尊賦予一套“普世價值”,偏執咁講,如果有人察覺到我既自尊係同普世價值脫節既話,咁我既自尊,的確唔係咁容易比人睇到搵到既。冇,就係咁意思勒。

唏,你近來點呀?我呢,就快死得。

Anonymous said...

我?險象環生,浴火重生,將近回歸。^^

C.M. said...

Welcome back!

Anonymous said...

Thanks. You seem to be working far away from your home too. Take care of your machine. XDDDD

C.M. said...

Terminator IX: the Price of the Machine

:P